Then I got to secondary school, my first day at school.. everything was going well! Then i saw the older boys at school.. It was chaotic.. i saw someone throw a real full force punch at another student.. As a 13 year old, i had never seen something like that outside a TV screen before.. It was shocking.. Students smoking in the toilets, on the way out of school.. it was like there were no rules! I became alot timid then, everyone was taller and bigger sized around me.. I tried my best to fit in, but no one wanted me.. I was a loser, a loner.. Well.. not to a large extent.. i still had some friends around me, and i was still quite social. One fine day at school, i was sent out of class together with about 6 others for not doing homework.. My primary school friend was sitting behind a chair smiling at his phone with 2 other guys, there were watching something funny i thought.. So i went over and.. wow! It was a porno! At the age of 13! It was my first badass moment!
Then, at sec 3.. things began to get interesting! I got along with so many of my classmates! It felt great! Then i mixed with some wrong company, well it some ways wrong but im glad i met this people! Hanging out with this people was really fun! I picked up smoking soon after and i skipped school with them and hung out at a nearby cafe alot! I learnt to shop lift too! They shared alot of their school stories, personal life and childhood stories with me.. I had another group of friends who often organised chalets.. There i learned to drink alcohol! I also started to go for concerts, kpop concerts, heavy metal concerts, indie concerts! I had a blast! At the end of the year, there was a class chalet, i sat at the porch of the chalet, with a few other guys, we were puffing on our cigarettes while listening to a playlist of house/electro music. Sitting there, staring at the carpark and some greenery from the golf course.. It was extremely nostalgic! At night, there was a gambling session, bbq, loud music to dance to, ghost story telling and lots of beer! It was a really fun party.. After the class chalet, there was another chalet i was invited to, the morning was pretty normal, just regular gaming, smoking, bowling, eating and shit.. the fun started in the night. After a scrumptious dinner, we took walks around the changi area, smoking and talking. It was really relaxing! Then back at the chalet! The drinking session began! I took a bottle of bailys, and drank a mouthful of it. Then i went into the drinking room. My friends took a bottle of half filed Chivas Regal and poured in some green tea until it was filled to the rim. They gave it to me and told me to drink it. I took the bottle and gulped down several mouthfuls of liqor. To my surprise, i finished half the bottle.. Then it was time to cut the birthday cake, so we all went downstairs. As usual, we did it the way boys usually celebrate birthdays, we threw cake at the birthday boy.. That lead to a mini catching game around the whole of the changi resort as the birthday dude came chasing us around with cake.. We ran around holding cigarettes and hiding behind bushes and trees. I was lucky to escape with just a little but of cake on my black shirt.. At the chalet, more bbq, gaming and gambling sessions.. As I sat by the TV, with a can of beer watching people play Modern Warfare 3, one of my friends signaled me to come upstairs.. I was already a little tipsy at that time. In the room, there were about 7 people.. He poured a shot of X.O i think.. (Could not remember :P) It was more then a shot.. i drank about 4 shots then one of them told me to do some kind of jump to test if i am high enough.. So i squat down and looked at the floor for awhile. And on the count of 3, i jumped as high as a could... It was really cool! I felt as if i flew up into the clouds, but coming down was the hard part.. I couldn't balance and just tumbled onto the floor.. (The jump literally felt so slowed down that you feel like you're in the air for awhile) Then we went down, i couldnt balance, i sat at the majong table. There, one of my friends uncle poured me more shots and forced me to drink it... The next thing i know, i lost control of my sober mind.. I started just drinking every alcohol shots i saw.. I couldnt even remember how many i took.. Then i didn't remember much, just lying on the toilet floor trying beat every guy who tried to come near me.. The next morning.. i found myself lying on the floor in the room, all wrapped in a blanket..The morning was terrible.. the hangover was intolerable.. i still felt tipsy, i was dehydrated, there was a splitting headache.. I only felt comfortable while lying down somewhere.. Everyone went bowling while i lay in the chalet to recover.. The sight or smell of alcohol made me feel like puking..
A few days later was a concert! 'A Day To Remember' One of my classmates called me and told me that they may me giving out free tickets if we stand outside the concert area.. So i went down to fort canning park.. We waited there for awhile but.. Nope no free tickets! We heard the band playing but we could not see them.. we were missing out on all the fun.. We circled the whole area trying to find a suitable place to sneak in.. I found a spot easy to climb but also very risky as it was about 50 metres away from the main entrance. A really wild mosh pit and smoky night! My Puma shoes were ruined, stained with soil from the moshing...
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| We climbed the hill on the left, the concert area was just on top, and as you can see in the background of the picture a set of stairs, thats where the security was.. |
And sadly, that was the end of my 2011.. the best year of my life.. 2012 came..i was a retainee.. no more of my fun classmates! I found everyone in class really lame.. Only a hand few of them were acceptable to me.. the rest behaved like typical kids.. There was no more of that 'Adult-ish' feel anymore.. It felt more like a school again.. people behaved like kids who couldnt keep still, trying to make funny jokes to attract attention.. I hated it.. Every recess i sit with my classmates and it kinda pains my heart to know that i will never be able to sit in their class and enjoy jokes together with them anymore.. Out of boredorm, i started massive shop lifting with a group of friends.. i smoked alot too! We definitely looted more then $100 worth of stuff.. I neglected studies, skipped school alot to game or to play pool.. But this time.. i scrapped though.. and made it to sec 4...
Here i am now in 2013, Sec 4.. I talked about how i feel about school in my first blog post.. Its sec 4.. i decided to stop all the stupid things i had been doing.. I quit smoking, never did any of those Thug things anymore.. Didn't attend anymore concerts.. I am becoming a nerd.. I am not liking it at all! Everything is getting so boring.. Im starting to become more and more social awkward from the lack of social interaction.. Im sitting here at 2AM blogging like an idiot because i dont hang out with people anymore.. But im saving all this.. The moment O's is over! I will be partying like a wild animal! Well i hope i dont go fully nerd enough to change my mind and stay nerdy forever :P
P.S I may have made alot of spelling/grammatical errors.. forgive me man! This is such a long post and its 2AM... my brain isn't at its peak.. :(
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